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I’m Sure There’s A Story

August 27th, 2018 No comments

Have you ever heard this expression before? It’s a catchy one with an interesting lesson.
In brief, people utter this expression when they have zero interest in what is going on in the life of another person.

For example, I begin to talk about myself and try and share something about my life. Then someone in earshot looks at me and sees my lips moving and simultaneously says “I’m sure there’s a story”. In other words, that person is saying they know I am talking about myself and don’t care to hear anything about my life.

The lesson here is that you don’t need to say “I’m sure there’s a story” as you hear someone talking about their self. And you don’t need to isolate or shun that person because they are talking about their self. If you have the energy and can muster the interest try and listen to what is going on in the life of that person.

My life is important and so is my life story. So is yours.

It’d be great to hear from you,

Matthew R. Polkinghorne
289-208-2241

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I Want More Life

August 19th, 2018 No comments

When I see my daughter; when I see her face and see her smile I can’t help but say in my head that “I want more life”. When I see the way she is changing from the last time I saw her and I see her mannerisms I can’t help but say in my head that “I want more life”.

And then every once in a while (likely on at least a monthly basis), I feel a fluttering in my chest that definitely feels like an arrhythmia and I again think that “I want more life”. There are so many uncertainties in life and we never know what is around the next corner that it is hard to not find a feeling of gratefulness and longing for more.

I work very hard at my job and money is not easy to come by so when I go out to a fine establishment for food and drink I get the feeling that I appreciate and enjoy the service and that I want more of this life even if it is monotonous and sometimes mundane.

Meaningful interactions are not necessarily plentiful and there are many people out there that just don’t want to talk including myself. So I try to squeeze every little drop out of life when I can. I think it is up to me to get as much out of life as I can even if I feel discouraged, shunned, unappreciated, taken for granted and worth about as much as a piece of dog kibble.

Somehow, though, I still want more life. If I wake up tomorrow morning, I am going to push myself out of bed with a mild grunt and start my day the best way I know how. I am going to execute actions that will propel me forward and push me through the day. Maybe someone will brighten my day with a funny joke or a kind word. We just don’t know what will gyrate us as we go about our day. This can be the beauty. This can be the tragedy. We do the best with the cards we are dealt and we make the best of our hands.

But even after the last word is said and the next word is being written all I know is that “I want more life”.

Don’t you?

It’d be great to hear from you,

Matthew R. Polkinghorne
289-208-2241

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He’s Too Cerebral

August 4th, 2018 No comments

I often think that I think too much and feel too little. In my writings I often express that I do feel but then I wonder afterwards if I really do feel anything at all. Thinking is very safe. When you are thinking you tend to not attach to any powerful feelings that might steer your behavior in a certain direction.

In this way I wonder if you or I may be too cerebral in how we go about our lives. Always planning the next course of action to maximize our life and avoid any dreaded mistakes that may slow us down or negatively impact what we are doing. Everything is carefully and perfectly calculated and we go through life not having to endure any of the bumps and bounces.

Then, sometimes, I look back on my life, especially the last 15 years of it and say “Wow! I have done a lot of things and been through a lot of shit”, so maybe I am not the planner I think I am. Maybe life has happened to me and I’ve had very little control over it. And in effect, I’m kind of dumb.

Yet I can’t escape this feeling that I’m too cerebral and it turns a lot of people off. It pushes people away not wanting any kind of attachment to me. Then I ask myself “Is this not who I really am?” and “Shouldn’t people like me for who I am if this is who I am?” It can be confusing and I think I am constantly trying to change myself to somehow attract new people into my life. And every day it feels as if I have again failed. No new relationships and no new people to speak of. Just a life of singularity where I am stuck up inside of my own head trying not to become frustrated with how my life has evolved.

Can you relate to any of this? Do feel or think that somehow you have become too cerebral in how you go about your life and how you interact/deal with people?

I’d love to know your thoughts.

It’d be great to hear from you,

Matthew R. Polkinghorne
289-208-2241

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