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The Invincibility Of My Soul

April 14th, 2018 No comments

Two days ago I was in my car in the early morning on my way to work. As usual, I had a Matt Good CD in the player and his music caught the edge of my soul and etched new words into my head. As I listened to his music the only voice I heard was “The Invincibility of my Soul”.

Then I thought about it for a moment and wondered “What do those words actually mean?” Does it mean that no matter how hard people beat me down I will always rise against and find the new day with the brilliant light no matter how cloudy it is? Will I start again no matter how bad I feel about myself and how much I question my worth in a world that judges everything by status and the raging dollar?

I just don’t know how to make sense of all the words and all of the voices. All I do know is that I need to try and believe in myself and realize that what I am doing is important and it impacts people.

And there is something I want you to know. There is something I want my daughter to know. And that is; if I die and am gone tomorrow I want you to know that I loved you…I always loved you. My love burned for you the moment you could intuitively understand what it meant when our eyes came into line and made contact.

It’d be great to hear from you,

Matthew R. Polkinghorne
289-208-2241

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Losing The One You Love

April 2nd, 2018 No comments

What can you say about it?
It’s hard to imagine what can hurt as much. There are some things that hurt more that most of us really don’t want to talk about.

I have lost many. In actual fact, losing has been a big part of my life. As much as I try and hold on and make efforts to repair I think I know in the back of my mind that I must try and let go. As painful as it is; to not think that I am a bad person for wanting for a moment to be selfish, I must try and let go only if it is momentary.

I can’t wrap my head around it any more than this because in my mind I don’t think there is much more to it.

I am strong against loss. It has been a big part of my life.

It’d be great to hear from you,

Matthew R. Polkinghorne
289-208-2241

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